10 Overweight making my Relationship Hell • Desteni - Equality and Oneness

Fear, in relation to this point, was more a like a awareness that you experienced as fear of what you were seeing, because you didnt understand it completely during that age when you were quite young though seven. K: Yeah. R: Seven, Eight yeah I mean seven is one of your turning points in your Mind Consciousness System or your Life Design. K: That was like the first point where I actually noticed this R: Yeah, you were seeing it. So then fear became a awareness so to speak of what you were seeing which you experienced the awareness point came first from the awareness you developed fear from the perspective of: not wanting to be that as a woman when you grow up or grow older. And then from there you manifested your emotional feeling body as disgust. Okay? K: yeah. R: Now, this is also another body thats existing within you = disgust. K: Yeah. Alright - in relation to this definition point of a female, that you have a picture of within your mind as your mother thats sitting there absolutely finished. But its interesting because theres one picture specifically memory thats in your head playing the whole time where where shes doing dishes and shes just completely like you saw her as a demon almost, like demonic. K: Well there was one time at this age when she was so stressed out that she actually hit me because I like I was just learning curse words like at that age and I said, I called her a bitch or something and she was doing laundry and doing the dishes at the same time and she just came and hit me and that was like a point where I just saw this like horrible R: Yeah - theres an image there like that and shes in a kitchen but the hitting part isnt there interestingly enough, it was more like that slap brought you back to reality and you saw her. K: Yeah. R: The demonic nature of her physical reality. K: Yeah. R: So which perpetuated an anger within yourself towards her even more, so from that stage everything she did brought up your emotional and feeling body in relation to disgust, kind of validating or building on your decision to never be like that. K:Yeah. R: Now, we have to look at what is it that youre trying to do or live to not be like that - which is actually creating or manifesting your reality to be and become exactly like hers, because youve built a polarity by saying: I will not be that, because you made that decision within disgust as a reaction, and then suppressed all of that and made a decision to live, try and live a different way to make sure that youll never be the same as your mother. This is another interesting point on this, as youll be moving through, youll find therell be a specific picture that youre
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