Suicide is Manipulation for attention? • Desteni - Equality and Oneness

I was the man who killed myself in front of a committee, because they did not want to re-zone my specific business, and, I killed myself because of that, because I knew that if what was required to be done wasn't done, I wouldn't make it in this world, I wouldn't be able to survive, because everything depended on my business - as much human beings in this world depend on their businesses and their jobs and... for money, to be able to survive in this world. If you don't have that, you die. And, I became so fuckin' angry, because there are these people that sit on these fucking committees, making a decision for human beings in this world, whether you will live or die. Who gives the right for human... for apparent "high stock" human beings, on their fuckin' pedestals, saying to them, "they have our lives in their hands!" Have a look... it's the... the governments, the goddam elite, the whassname... illuminati, committees, making decisions between human beings lives - whether you live or die.


So, in that moment I decided, "Fuck this. I shall kill myself, because then, at least I hold my life in my hands. In other words, I will now choose whether I live or die. They're not going to make that decision for me." Well, they kind of already did, because when they said they won't re-zone my properties, so that I'm able to make a business, and actually fuckin' survive in this world, they basically killed me. So, I killed myself, because there was no reason or purpose then to live in this world, is there? I mean what is the reason human beings live in this world? To bloody survive. Really. Have a look at it. I mean young children, you know, OK, you have... you live your lives, because you've got parents to provide for you - you don't have that concerns yet, but you will. Your parents are the ones that live to survive, as will everyone in this world start living to survive, and that's it! And then, comes some cases where the bloody, high-ranking, status-positioned human beings will say, "I have got your life in my hands. I will choose whether you live or die in this world." What do I mean by `die'? Whether you must fuckin' go out there and scrap for food on the bloody pavements of the roads. I mean, really... you know... and what's the most saddest thing, is that we're bloody allowing these things. You know, human beings are not standing up, they're not saying, "Uhhhm....hmmm... you know, I'm... I'm... I'm living, am I not? And I have the right to choose... you know, in terms of how I would like to experience myself in this world", but we cannot even do that, because we're allowing the governments to exist and the wassname... illuminati to exist, and... you know, high people in these high-ranking places, so, you know, I'd kind of had enough, and that's why I killed myself, because I didn't see any reason or purpose then to live in this world if I didn't have a business, to bloody survive.

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